I love you!  Those words can flow easily from mouths and do they really mean something?  Too many people, those three little words mean everything and for me they did as well.  Today, I’m not sure what they mean when they flow from my husband’s mouth.

It’s not another bitch session, just curious as to why.  Why he can so easily say that he loves me today, but never spoke those words to me prior to our separation.  Does he really love me now?  Does he say it because he’s not sure what else to say?

Since our separation, I have never told him I love him.  I am no longer “in” love with him.  My love for him is for the time we have and the children we have together, but it is not love you have for your spouse, more like a friend.  I have been honest with him about this and he accepts my feelings.

Thinking back on our marriage and why we are at this place in our life together, I can’t tell you if I will ever be “in” love with him again.  Today, sadly, I am not, tomorrow that may change. 

I am sitting here thinking about it and about why I get frustrated when he tells me.  I don’t feel the same that he does.  I guess I just feel awkward when I have nothing to say back to those three little words.

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