My husband told me this weekend to either “figure it out or I’m gone.”  Well, I guess if he had given me the “time” I asked for, I would probably know by now. 

So what if it has been almost a year since our separation began and yes, most people by now would have figured it out, but those are the people whose spouses actually gave them the time they needed instead of being their shadow 24/7!

He is the one that messed up.  And, if I had gotten my way, we would be in divorce court instead of trying to reconcile.  All I asked was for some time - time to know if he is really going to be the man that I need as a husband, lover, and friend.  So far, I’ve got 1 out of 3… not so good!

You know, why is it so hard to give time?  I would think as much as he wants us back together that he would give me my time.  It would go by much faster.  But no, time has not been on my side.

I am about ready to tell him that it is done.  Enough is enough and I need to move on.  I am not miserable, but I am unhappy.  I would rather our children see us happy friends then miserable parents.

I write this now, but next week I will still be there because I don’t want to hurt his feelings.  I need to scream really loud and get rid of some frustration.

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